I am still in a great amount of pain and sadness and alot of shock. I spent so many years being angry or mad at him and now....I wish I would have just maybe tried alittle harder to help him, to be there for him, it really wouldnt have killed me to give him a ride here and there to the boys games would it?
My heart is breaking for our two sweet boys that are having to deal with this loss. Never in my life have I been so sad! Never in my life have I had to deal with something as hard as telling them about their father passing away. Having to hear them cry
out NO, NO, NO and crying so hard they can't stop shaking. Our lives will never be the same again, I will never understand why these things happen.
My heart is breaking for our two sweet boys that are having to deal with this loss. Never in my life have I been so sad! Never in my life have I had to deal with something as hard as telling them about their father passing away. Having to hear them cry
out NO, NO, NO and crying so hard they can't stop shaking. Our lives will never be the same again, I will never understand why these things happen.
To:Spencer
I have always loved you and I'm sorry for giving up. I will make sure that our boys remember how much you loved them and I will make sure they grow up to be just like you. You were a wonderful father, which I didn't say quite enough! And I will always be grateful for the time we did have together. Thank you for the two most wonderful things in my life! OUR BOYS! I will miss you forever and I know the boys will miss you longer than that. I hope someday we will see each other again, as a family.
I have always loved you and I'm sorry for giving up. I will make sure that our boys remember how much you loved them and I will make sure they grow up to be just like you. You were a wonderful father, which I didn't say quite enough! And I will always be grateful for the time we did have together. Thank you for the two most wonderful things in my life! OUR BOYS! I will miss you forever and I know the boys will miss you longer than that. I hope someday we will see each other again, as a family.